Release Day Review: Losing Faith by Scotty Cade
Southport Baptist Church’s Associate Pastor, Abel Weston, has a hard time managing his demons. When they get too overwhelming, he retreats to Southport’s Historic Riverwalk with his Bible in hand and stares out over the water, praying for help and guidance that never seem to come. But Abel soon discovers that help and guidance come in many forms.
An unexpected friendship develops between the two men, and as Cullen helps Abel begin to confront his doubts and fears, he comes face-to-face with his own reality, threatening both their futures.
Awesome 5 star read!
Cullen is a gay Episcopal priest, who finds himself in a place that has many happy, but equally painful memories and he has no idea what bought him back to Southport, he just knew he needed to be here. He comes across Abel, a Baptist pastor looking like he has the weight of the world on his shoulders. Cullen's training kicks in and he knows Abel needs a friend. Cullen is just surprised by how deep the friendship grows.
I rarely, almost NEVER read the bits the authors write at the beginning of their books. The ones that say thank you to this person or that person. For some reason, HERE, I read most of it, I read the preface. And I am so bloody glad I did. It gives the whole book a much more deeper feel, a deeper connection to Mr Cade and how this story came about. And let me tell you, YOU read that bit. You really need to.
WHY?? Because this book is phenomenal in the amount of feeling and emotion and love and pain that comes across. I have no doubt, none at all, had I NOT read that bit at the beginning, it would not have had the same impact.
Both men, priest and pastor alike, are in mourning. Cullen for the loss of his husband two years previous and Abel for the loss of...well...himself. It takes time for both full pictures to be made clear, and I love being made to wait for it. Being made to wade through the pain these men have, their growing feelings for each other, their knowledge that one slip up could end Abel's career, their determination that will not happen.
It made me cry, many times. But not just tears of sadness, although it was mostly those sort. There were tears of happiness in really random places, that threw me off kilter. I was reading this at work, in my lunch break, and the other member of staff kept sticking her head in to see if I was okay. I asked her why? She said you keep making noises, sad ones and happy ones, just wanted to check. I NEVER make noises when I'm reading. Listening, yes, but not reading. OH!! I would so love to LISTEN to this book! Mr Cade? audio? maybe? Sorry, off track.
I did worry at one point, that the book would take a decidedly darker, more deadly tone, but Mr Cade pulled that intervention off with minimal damage. It was difficult to read the constant barrage of them talking to him (I'm not saying who!) but that was all it was, talking and shouting.
The physical relationship between Abel and Cullen grows beautifully, at a fair and even pace, and is so stunningly beautifully written. Its not too explicit nor is it glanced over. We get just enough, just the right amount of it to feel the love growing between these two men, that is so perfect for this book.
Both men's relationship with God is tested, and talked about, but in a good way, in a way that fits with these men being priest and pastor.
But what made the most impact on me, was the impact that Cullen's dead husband had on Cullen and Abel's relationship. His messages to Cullen, via those dreams were deeply profound. Cullen just needed to see what Cole was saying to him. It took him long enough to get the message! I keep using the word beautiful, I know I do, but its the best word for this book, but the dreams were so beautiful.
I've only listened to another book of Mr Cade's, and that was a bit so-so. BUT this one blew me away. I've also only read one other book with a man of (any) cloth as the main character. After that one, I knew I wanted more, but only if they were as good as THAT book. This one was equal to that five star read, but very different.
I can't stress how much I loved this book, and as such, it can only get...
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